Monday, November 9, 2009
No i'm not going to commit sucide.. -.- ♥
1:32 AM
Every night, i face the same fear.. the deadline is approaching.. yet my decisions remains uncertain. hais.. i guess good things just dun come my way eh? joke.. but of cos! no one would give a shit except me. what do they know! it'd always been just me.. what difference would it make now right?
Wrong. there is a difference and now it just got greater. bravo lyn! once again you screwed up! when was the last time u got something right? oh ya sure! never! so y even bother existing? hah to use to think i was born for a purpose just seem so stupid now. i bet i was probably some accident that happened 18 yrs n 6 months ago eh? hah! which reminds me of how old i'd actually be SOON. not like i can stop it.
Fool! y do i even exist? i guess i was once promising. but i nvr got up from my fall. not now, not a yr ago, not 5 yrs back! so they say something shocking n dreadful must happen in order to create somethin impactful n drive a living dead person alive eh? but i doubt this works for me, nothing ever did anyway.
there was once a saying.. when god gives u something, he takes something away from you in return.. so y not next time i ask a favour from you, you take my life instead? trust me.. it's a favour to everyone.. just make it short and sweet! =)
