Saturday, August 22, 2009
Bliss ♥
11:00 PM
Damn! yet another tuition that burnt a hole in my pocket. tuition.. hais, they're nothing but addition lesson of out class. it would have saved the trouble if only i had paid more attention during my lectures. dang! a total waste of money. yet for people like me, i desperately need them, or it'll take one more year of my life in school. not something to joke about eh?
12th storey! hais! it's a whole way up the blocks! fortunately they now have lifts that go all the way up to the top floor. or i'd have died climbing up even before i reach my destination!
now i wonder what he'll be like, my tuition teacher i mean. i couldn't help it! the least i could do is find any possible form of motivation to drag me out of my hse all the way to buangkok to attend his class. there just has to be something! n yep! i secretly hope he'll be nice n good looking.
alright now! this is it! i intendly pressed the bell! oh gosh! come on!!! let my wish be true!!!!
wtc?! who is that? a woman? alright. taken! dang now i hope he's someone nice. zz married man i see. okie so off with the tuition teacher - good looking part. now maybe he's nice? HOPEFULLY!
well it seems i'm early? hah! n i though i was late! it's 20 mins pass my supposed starting time! irritation gathered within me! wtc! it's my tuition time you're wasting!! seems from his wife that he's on his way here asap? oh well who cares.
okie! first impressions first!! well he seems nice.. i guess. rather old too. maybe late 30s? early 40s? hair silver grey. hmm that's what happens when u teach i guess? u tend to age way older! haha oh well. he apologised.. forgiveable i guess!
what can i say! he's a pretty nice guy! probably in comparison to my previous math teacher he seemed way more patient. slowly teaching me without losing patient n intendly correcting n pin pointing on my carelessness and important workings that i must not miss out. gosh! this is the first time i actually felt i learnt something from tuition class! fuctions! =D
2hr came and gone as fast as a blink of an eye! no kidding! it may seem skeptical but i actually enjoyed tuition today! hah! i can believed i'm saying that either! as i was about to leave, he asked if i've yet to see his youngest daughter. i turned my head. not wearing contacts or spects, all i could see is a blur image of a little girl, who seems somewhat different form a normal kid her age? well.. maybe i couldn't see clearly.. n i'm most probably wrong. or was it the way she speaks that seems different? but she's a child, doesn't all child speaks like that? hmm i've lost connection with children for a good plenty of years! most probably i'm wrong about her. but i know one thing for sure, she's thin!
who's that? she asked her father. and yes, i'm a new girl! as her father introduced. smiling like any proud father would. he turned around and smiled at me, saying now that she knows your name, she'll probably come talk to u the next time you're here.
from his eyes. i can see that for that instance he's really proud of his little girl. the fact that she could remember names really well. though it might seem no big deal. but then again, how often are u able to remenber some random person's face and name just by the first tiem you look at them? not me i guess! i'm really forgetful! unless i have to, i'll most probably forget anyone else with no importance to me, well unless they did something impressionable? and well this little girl did. for sure she did. idk why, but i have a feeling i like her!
i went off. down to the void deck, waiting impatiently for my mum to come pick me up from class. looking at those rc they have i stoned away. until a vague familliar image from the side of my eye hit me! i turned and saw my tutor, his wife and his little girl! i don't know what hit me. or why i m so surprise. when i saw the little girl in an adult pram. he carried her into the car seat. while keepin his pram, and waved goodbye to me before driving off.
that little girl. that very little bright girl who remembers names and faces as soon as she sees one. how more unfair could the world be? she deserved much more then that! n the ignorant joy she has within her.. would it slowly flicker off with time as she gets older? i could suppose the family have faced much criticism, and for the little girl, she would face much discrimination. it's not the the feeling of pity that hit me. it's the feeling of being human one again, apart from all the facts in life, all the times i chose to not care or bother. but this very girl before me. would die to have what i have, yet i'm not contented. if i were her, i know i'd never be as strong as she is. to face everyday with a smile, or her parents, whom despite her handicap, remained so proud of the fruit of their love.
if there's any word that could have described them now, the word is bliss.
