well, i's just figuring that it's been ages since i uploaded a proper post on my blog. oh well! here's how it goes! =X

hmm lots of things have happenned lately that's for sure! especially during the june holiday! well let's start with good news first! i went to milan!! for a week! haha! hmm 18 to 26! haha hmm its a really relaxing trip and i must admit i do enjoy it pretty much though this is the first time i did such little shopping for myself! =X

Well, now the bad thing! =X i did horribly for my mid years! =X so much so that it feels like a point beyond redemption.. i have thoughts that put myself in a very uncomfortable situation. things that never crossed my mind are catcing up on me.. what if i screw up? what if i cant make it next year? what would i do then? is there another alernative? or rather.. should i go along with that alternative? these things.. NEVER appeared in my mind before.. until now.. i guess? =X