okie! just to revive my half dead blog, i shall jus do a random post. hmm, well recently, life has been rather boring and stressful at the same time. though yes.. how could it be possible for life to be both boring and stressful at the same time! but well, that is how i currently feel now.. it's like i feel that each day passes quickly without any objective or any purpose. i'm jus living like a zombie, going with the flow.. not doing anythin..

there were instances whereby i did think about my life, especially now that i do have a little more time.. i do think of what is my main purpose or objective in life, or what motivates me to work hard.. but apparently, after much pondering, i came up with no possible conclusions. it's like i don't have a future in mind, yes, though i use to joke on what's the point of thinking so much of the future n i used to think the main reason why i seem so chirpy is because i live my life to the fullest each day and think nothing more that what is happening now! but as much as i would love to continue doing so, i cant! especially when i hear my peers telling me about their aims, goals, whatsoever, i feel like a lost sheep, with no sense of direction..not knowing what might come before me, making last minute decisons.. i just cant tell them what is my aim in life! i cant even tell them what is my targeted score for my mid years!

Aims and expectations.. are they really that important? i recall my mum constant naggings of my bro & I having no aim in life.. i use to think "yeah right! whatever!" but come to think of it.. it is true.. what do i wanna do with my life?